if you go away

Life made a lot of crazy turns last week – surprises that weren’t meant to be funny, uncertainties, disappointments after another. It happened all so sudden I didn’t have the time to pause and digest everything. All swirling emotions of being left alone. Ang drama.

Even in my moment of solitude this weekend, I still can’t address each one. Or maybe I tried in my effort to put it to rest but failed miserably. Why do I make a big deal of it anyway? I wish I know. I hope I learn to understand myself.

For now, I’m posting the letters of Rod McKuen’s translation of the French song Ne Me Quitte Pas written by Jacques Brel. I heard the Spanish version of the song from the firm I watched last night.

If you go away
Rod McKuen

If you go away on this summer day,
Then you might as well take the sun away;
All the birds that flew in the summer sky,
When our love was new and our hearts were high;
When the day was young and the night was long,
And the moon stood still for the night bird’s song.
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I’ll make you a day
Like no day has been, or will be again;
I’ll sail the sun, I’ll ride on the rain,
We’ll talk to the trees and worship the wind.
Then if you go, I’ll understand,
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand,
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you will,
you must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
for what good is love without loving you,
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go,
I’ll be dying slowly till the next hello,
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I’ll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again.
I’ll sail on your smile, I’ll ride on your touch,
I’ll talk to your eyes that I love so much.
But if you go, go, I won’t cry,
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye,
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you must,
There’ll be nothing left in the world to trust,
Just an empty room, full of empty space,
Like the empty look I see on your face.
I’d have been the shadow of your shadow
If I thought it might have kept me by your side.
If you go away, if you go away, please dont go away.